THE TUTEE

So, I have this side line. I'm tutoring algebra to a grade six korean student. His name is Peter, about his Korean name, I dunno. Anyway. He's cute, well, all korean kids are (i mean, majority of them). And he's naughty sometimes. I enjoy teaching him.

RANDOM THOUGHTS

I wander why we have headsets here in our library when we can't open youtube, imeem or other music sites.

I'm feeling apprehensive in c++ laboratory. I don't know if my will and faith are strong enough to keep holding on to the faith.

I want a cellphone. And also, I think I need it.

I want to go to the sea. Anywhere as long as I'll be able to see the ocean, swim in it, and walk in its shores. I'm so excited. I hope that our Infanta trip this December will be carried out. It was postponed three times. And I'm just so disappointed about it. It had been a year already since the last time I've been there. And you know, I always want to come there again and again. I miss the sea, really. Pardon me.

I feel so alone right now, and bored. I know there's a lot of work to do, projects, reports, etc. But, I'm just not in the mood to be studious right now.

I don't have any driving force right now to strive harder in school. I feel that going to school, is like, a routine. A boring routine. Everyday is the same day. I don't feel anything different. Different in a way, that I'll be enthusiastic to go here everyday. Like, feeling excited because I know I will learn something new. Something that I crave for to learn. Something that I really want. Okay, I'm not saying that I hate my course. That dammit, of all the courses, why this? Its not like that. And, I don't want it to be that way. I love my course, and I want to learn everything from my heart.

BOREDOM

I'm here in school. Wasting my little free time. Well, this day was so cool and busy. Cool because we don't have most of our classes, and we spent time littering around. Laughing, joking, and getting pissed. It was busy though, my head aches. Everyone downstairs are busy. Of course they are because today's .. i mean this week's another mapuan event, and this day marks the end of it. So, next week, it'll all be on normal mode again. As usual.

:(

I'm so feeling. And I really hate it. Everything was just a folly. So far from reality. This "love" feeling that bothers me for days is only a joke. And I'm sorry to myself that I'd become so emotional, and it's just so stupid of me, and so embarrassing. I'm so sorry to myself. No one's hurting me though. It's just me who's letting myself get killed because of what I think is real.

I am so sad. I just wanna cry.